bbzzzttt

ive been postponing this post since two weeks ago. and since im waiting for someone in IRC and getting bored in each min (and also pissed off and tired of something), why not scramble all these feelings and unleash them. so please be reminded that some contents of this post might be too direct for some people. and why would some people find it too direct? sebab trase la kn.

ok we've been living among intelligent and smart and gifted people. some work their ass off to achieve what they have today and some are just simply special. but no matter how they got what they are now, the one thing that differentiate these people from being liked and disliked is how they share their brains/knowledge and things.

and after 4years, you guys should have known who are and who arent the liked people. i encountered many people yg pandai but somehow they managed to show that they dont believe in" sharing is caring". there was once when we had an argument about accidentally shared answer-booklet but yah whatever. eventhough their reasons were kinda hm-hm but sure.

and i remember asking someone about his assignment but when i tried to take a look at his work, he just hid his answer. this may sound like "so what" but the problem was, the assignment was the computer software and how la aku nak copy assignment ko tuh. and btw, i didnt ask to copy, i were only asking how he did it.

ok moved on from the past. the one that i wna tell you is what had happened to me last two weeks. but it started earlier btw. i asked this particular person a bit about his fyp. and if he happened to have the installer which is ANSYS. and yes, he has it. but once i asked for the installer, he simply ignored my gtalk eventhough he was online all the time. ok fine. then a week later, i gtalked him again and asked if he could assist me in installing ANSYS. once again, he ignored me. and he was online all the time too.

firstly, it was just a fcking installer, not ur fyp reports. secondly, i only asked you to assist me, thats all. if you were busy that time, couldnt you just simply said,"wana, aku bz skng nh. later can?". susah ke nk taip? and when i told my frens about this person, one of them said that "mmg geng dorg macam tuh". she experienced once with one of the geng when she asked about ECONS project (ala, yg korg kne amek senior punye fyp tok jd rujukan tuh) and he just said no to her eventhough he wasnt the one who did the effort to take the fyp thingy. ape busok pnye prangai. not like she wanna copy project ko pun.

hey that geng, yah you might look cool and friendly and sort of things but being a guy and kedek ilmu, thats just a turn off laa. and yes anda semua pandai tapi ape guna pandai melangit tapi xreti nk bantu? da la sesame bangsa kot. mmg la malay mmg suke spoon feeding nh tapiii lemme get this straight. ktrg bukan nk copy tp nk rujukan. we all are not that stupid pun nk photostat sume hasil kerja ko. haish.

and thanks to Akram for helping me with my ANSYS. and for me, Kicap is the best role model. he's smart and doesn't mind to share. mudah - mudahan dipermudahlan urusan kalian and only Allah je yg blh balas. pergh kalu Asba and Kicap bace nh. hahaha.

so sape yg trase, id say, "ade aku kesah time ko xksah?"

Talking laser beam

yes, that's me.

the love

urban dic

when i was reading tasha's blog, i remembered that we used to laugh at how ridiculous urban dic can be. haha. esp when it came to thomas's part. hehe. some of the definitions:

thomas

• a teenage white kid that has an abnormally large penis usually ranging to 7.5 inches to 8 (hahahaha ok no comment. is it true? :P)
• the best boyfriend a girl can ask for. Will do anything for you and will love you with all his heart. Any girl who dates him will be the happiest girl on the planet (yes yes 200% agree with this!!! you are the best syg, you really are! be mine forever yah?)
• a very kind person,always willing to talk, and be there when your down (this is sooo YOU! muaxx)

wana hasnt been defined yet. sigh. well at least im not common. haha ini ayat kaber semata2. so i made up my own version of definitions :P

• a girl who is madly in love which you have no idea how goo goo ga ga she can be with thomas
• average body. haha perlukah?
• can be as kind as she wants too and as bitch as she is willing to
• and yes, can be a talking laser-beam. bzzzzttttt

have fun checking on your names!

press one

have i told you guys that Pn Norra aka my mom can be cute and funny sometimes? i got a call from her this evening and here what happened.

me: please press 1 to redial

[silence]

me: we havent heard any response from you. please press 1 to redial

[teeeettt]

hahahahah. she pressed the button for real! and she tot she dialed the wrong num. hayo ibu. can you be any cuter?

and its name is PINKY

ive a new baby. yes yes, and im excited about it because it's PINK. a dem howt pink. im head over heels with its cute pinky housing and wow-ed by the functions it has. it's time, but actually when i come to think about it, it's ady an overdue for a camwhore like me to have my very own cam. sigh. better late than never aite? so snap snap!

14.03.10

he might not remember what perfumes i wear

he might not remember the name of my shampoo

he might not remember my phone's number

but

he does remember what i wore

on our dates, to office, everywhere

he does remember what ive said

when we were out, argue, talk

he does remember what i did

almost everything

and for that

i love him more than before

even more than he loves me

there are just too many reasons

for me to keep on falling for him

and it never stops

dearest thomas kremser

nur hazwana loves you

sangat - sangat!

ninth month hu?

woot woot

big Xs

even bigger Os!

mat rempit haram jadah

Sunday, 28th February 2010- I was on the middle lane and just realised that i need to turn right. so i gave signal and slowly turned right since there was another car behind me. and at that moment, a motorcycle was coming from behind and he seemed like want to overtake me. so i gave him way but then he just braked. and he gave me the finger. when he overtook me from my left, i gave him my finger back. and he saw that. and he looked at me, straight eye-to-eye, with my pink glasses on. he braked again and gave me that ko-nak-carik-pasal-ke-pompuan-look. but then he left.

dasar mat rempit satu haram pun xgune. with that carrot cut pants and singkat cam kl nh banjir 24 jam, motor kapcai, pakai helmet tp xbuckle up, rantai cam rantai hanjeng, rambut berekor cam hewan. you are such a disgrace la. muka cam tembok xsiap. bumper utp pn lagi ensem la weh. jijik aaa ko nh. siyes jijik. oh if only there is a worse word than jijik. da la klu ad road block ko salu lalu arah bertentangan. tu xpe lagi. nh siap leh wat org excident. nk mampos, sorg2 blh x? and yes, aku sangat benci mat rempit.

"up for something, good for nothing"

perfect man

i envied all the love stories ive read. i envied those perfect couples whether they were real or just another fairy tales. i envied all the happily-ever-after movies. i envied them all.

but now im not

coz ive my own love story

and it's real

i dont believe there is such thing as a perfect man

he's only a mystical figure

only real in fiction

but now im not sure

maybe ive found one

the man

my perfect man

14.02.10

hey syg. i did this poem a month ago ady. see, i noe we can survive until the 8th month. haha. of coz we can with such a totful bf and a patient gf. kann?

8 months now syg

i've been yours

surprisingly i survived

of being that (haha)

8 months now syg

i've been yours

not a single day

i wish i'm not

8 months now syg

i've been yours

never been this happy

in my life

8 months now syg

i've been yours

thanks is never enough

for your presence

8 months now syg

i've been yours

and you know what?

i'll always be

oh, have i said i love you?

:P

p/s: we have 13 celebrations up till now. phew and yay! i love you syg, always do, always have. big smack of a fat kiss on your lips!

momok

my frens and i were having horror-movie marathon for these past two weeks. case 39, sarang kuntilanak, malam satu suro. hua. bran kan kami? that reminds me on some of the hot ghost stories back in school. and even here in utp. wo0o0o spooky?

makcik jual karipap/nasik lemak

• the story about students who stay up late at night (burning midnite oil gituu) to do revision but in the middle of the nite, their windows been knocked (bygkn meja study next to the windows). knock knock. who's there? makcik jual karipap. nak? oh xpe, da knyang. and then the makcik left. few secs later, the students just realised that they are on 3rd floor

orang sebelah

• knock knock. who's there? orang sebelah. and when u open the door, u tot it was ur neighbour but it turned out to be a figure with only half parts of the body

hantu kira-kira

• nh bijak sket. xpakai calculator pn. when u suddenly woke up at nite when everyone was soundly asleep, you saw something. and then u pretended to sleep and closed ur eyes shut. but all you hear was, "satu..da tdo. dua..da tdo..tiga..da tdo (aaa truskn smpi abes satu dormmate korg)." when it's ur turn, that thing will say,"haaa yg nh blum tdo."

hantu sikat

• this tale was told by my aunt. this ghost was kinda femes at her school. sek men tgi perempuan melaka. as usual, you woke up and saw a woman, combing her hair in your mirror

hantu berus gigi

• tabik hooke la for those yg bran p cleanup after everyone is sleeping ady. when you were brushing your teeth, suddenly your teeth was bleeding badly and your toothbrush turned into knife

hantu telekong

• i heard this story when i was in sbpir. they said, the male students said, they saw a line of women with telekung on the roof when they were on their way to the mosque for maghrib. fuh

solat jumaat

• there was a rumors that this one male student decided not to go for friday prayer and chose to hide inside one of the locker and fell asleep. his dormmate came in and locked the locker coz he tot no one was there and it was sem break. few days later, they found that student died.

actually, banyak lagi story2 yang kembangkan buluroma nh. im myself kinda experienced something but thank God nothing bad happened and i didnt see anything. hua hua. nak tau ape jadi? it was almost 3am and i was waiting for a fren to fetch me for a late supper. while waiting, i was in need to do business #1. so i went to the nearest toilet (inside one of the house) and paham2 je lar kan. when i was zipping up (malu ok bgtau public nh), i heard someone was zipping up too. ok, someone was here and i felt a bit relieved (btw, im a scaredy-cat). but when i stepped out from my cubicle, there was no one there. maka saya pun gunakanlah experience saya sbg sprinter to run as fast as i can. and i just realised that, when i came in to the toilet, no one was there and i didnt hear a thing, not even water running from anywhere but my cubicle. fuh.

missing suster

have you ever lost a fren or family? in a mall? i did. today. at midvalley. kakni, uyun, sheila and i went for shopping. after a good lunch (korean, first time! wee), kakni went to perform her prayer and left her bag with us and only brought her hp. later, i just noticed that she called and text me to ask where we were. and her hp batt was dying. so i text her that we gonna wait for her at esprit. 5mins later, still she hadnt show up. i decided to text her again and the sms wasnt delivered. ok, her phone died. so we waited there and after 10mins, still, no sign of her. we went on our search-and-rescue mission all over the ground floor. nope, she wasnt there. we even asked the guards if they could announce her lost. ok klaka kot d situ. it's not like we've lost a 4 years old kid. we are talking about 24 yo sis! huaaa. siyes malu when we asked them and even worse when they couldnt do it. sigh. so we split. with sheila's suggestion, uyun went to the parking lot while i took care of the ground floor and first floor. and i asked her to stay put in case kakni passed by. so the hunt begun (ke began?). few mins later, i met with sheila again and called uyun for her status. and she said she found kakni (finally!). so what happened to her? she went searching all over the mall. she went to the places that we planned to go, twice, and after a tiring tour, she felt like crying and decided to just wait at the car. and gladly we did go there to check on her. and i asked her why didnt she call us using public phone? she said, no money. hayo, cannot ask 20 cent from others aa?

ok so here are some tips that i will recommend you to do in case you experience this situation in the future.

the one yang ilang:

• relax, dont panic. take a look of your surrounding and wait for few mins in case ur frens pass by you.
  
• if you have ur hp, call them la kn
• if you dont, find nearest public phone or pinjam hp org
  
• if you dont have any money, ask 20 cent from someone next to you. malaysians are not that kedekut kann
• if you dont remember ur frens' num (like my sis, sigh!), call up any of ur fren/family that have relation to ur fren. paham dok ayat nh? haha. then, ask the other fren/family to call to inform ur fren (yg same2 ilang tu) about your location
• if you are not capable to do any of these things (like my sis again!), just wait at the car park
• if you happen to come with public transport, just wait at the info centre.
• kalu x jumpe gak smpi mall tutup, siyes xpat den nk nolong eyhh

the one yg terhilangkan kwn:

• relax gak, try call ir fren
• if ur fren doesnt bring her/his hp, try to stay put for awhile
• still can't find ur fren? go to info centre and if can, announce the missing
• if can't, wait at the centre of the mall. kan slalu ad bulat tgh2 tu kan?kot2 leh nampak kan
• still not? hayo, fine, try check on the last place you guys went together
  
• tak lagi? haaa tgu je la kt keta/public transport
• xjmpe gak? sowi, nh jela yg mampu cek tlg
  

she-knows-that

i went to one of my ex-classmate's engagement. i reached there hours after the ceremony coz i was in malacca on that morning and heavy traffics were blocking my way. so basically when i got there, there was barely anything left eventhough there was a storm racing in my bumpy tummy. blablabla and this is not actually the reason of my writing this time. it was about a friend of mine. well, after today, i dont think she's someone that u might wna consider as fren. more like, urm, someone u know, that's all. and why is that?

lets go back to a lil history, shall we? when i was 14 and since im a year younger than the rest of my frens back in school (still do), i used to call some of them with the title of Kak and she's one of them. maybe bcoz she looked all grown up and matured kind of person. and maybe bcoz of that, she kinda always, when i said always, i means always, all the time, treated me like i was a child. and she had this attitude of boasting and full of herself. she had this tot that she's better than everyone in all sorts of thing and she had this smug face when she talked.

anddd i tot, it's a past tense when i said 'she had' and 'she tot'. i beg to differ. it kinda took me by surprise too thinking that after all these years, she might change, NOT. and still, she has that talk-with-slang even in malay (she's good in english, i admit that). and with those long eyelashes she has, she tends to give the rolling-eyes-face when she talks about something (she thinks) she knows more than any of us.

it all started when they asked me how i met my bf. with a big smile, i was telling them briefly how it happened and thingies and one of my fren asked me where he lives. and i said frankfurt oder. i was kinda startle to say 'oder' coz german is not always pronounced as it's written. and she corrected me, which i dont mind at all, except with that oh-i-know-everything-face. but, i let it passed.

however, she was then asked me this inappropriate question to me. she asked,"how can you trust him?" i was stunned for awhile before i explained that we kinda influenced by the american attitude and european is nothing like that. and guess what? she kept interrupting me with "yeah, european is not like that" and "conservative people are like that" and "i know them coz ive been there" and "i can speak german coz i took the class back in the school". yeah sure, whatever. but i guess, u've never been with a german (as a bf i mean) before to speak with first hand experience eh?

clap clap for her since she knows eeeeevverything in this world. sure. after the small reunion we had, i went back with a fren and i told her that i was kinda annoyed with that Kak. and she said,"im relieved that u say that. did you know what she said when you were washing the dishes?" and here what she said (well, i dont really remember what she said exactly but it sounded like this la),

"

we who already work always find a bf that is responsible and has future to take care of. we are not like students anymore who only find bf for fun.

"

o-m-g. that's the limit bitch. like siyesly, u said that? o c'moonnnn. you were talking about 20+ yo frens, not the one who's in the 1st year or just had their SPM. do you actually know any of our bfs? like, really really know them to say that? is your bf that responsible in whatever shit he's doing? you sure he's the best man alive (or dead)?

hey listen laa. you havent seen us for years and you dont have any shit of clues what we have been through. you dont know what kind of men we've been dated or experienced with. you have no right to say that. no right at all. not only you are proud with yourself like you always do, you also looking down at us as if we are stupid and dont have a clue in finding a good or even great man to be with. siyesly dowh, cam bangang je ko ckp cmtuh.

sorry, ive no respect with you anymore nor i can consider you as fren. just someone i know. and the fact that you were saying those things in front of your 3frens that are still students and have bf of their own, that's just stupid, woman. you have no right at all. coz you dont have any idea of us.

oh wait, remember when you said that being a student is better than doin work in terms of shopping, bills, car and things? maybe you are right. or maybe the work you are doing right now just dont give you enough pay.

p/s: we are not 14 yo gals that you knew when you were 15. people change and you? not.

bile da bosan

it's bad enough that you never learn

and it's worse that you also never listen

if only you know

things that you should know

it's not like you've never been told

you just chose to keep it on hold

just a random poem

when i was bored at home

with all my certs gone

nowhere to be found

aaaa stress aku

buduuuu

three

at 3 in the morning

im writing this

after 3 hours lepaking

with my ladies

pitbull's song

minus the stress

is it wrong?

to express?

aaaa pagi2 xde idea nak sambung

till next time je la

he knows how to make me :) when im :(