budak

i was about to take out my money from my purse when the baby who was in his dad's arms saying,

"duit. duit. duit."

wah, kecik2 da mata duitan

Belang

my mom saw him laying on the tarmac, under her car. so she told him," kalau nk ikot aku blk, tgu kat cni pas abes skolah ye." (ya, all of my family members have a talking-to-cats syndrome). and there he was, still sleeping on the table near my mom's car. so he was brought home and named Belang.

lots of cat come and go. but none of them is as special as him. dont get me wrong. i looovveee all my cats. citam, nandos, kfc, mcd, laila, abu, kenet..ok, ive lost track of all their names. sigh. lemme briefly describe this one particular cat.

• he only makan rice mixed with ikan rebus
• he didn't eat kulit ayam goreng
• he didn't like to share. it's either he had his own plate of rice or he will just wait till everycat was done eating
• he miow when my mom locked him out of her room at nite
• he had special weird miow-voice
• when he's in a bad mood, it's better if everyone stayed away from him
• he scratched everyone but my dad
• he greeted my dad when he returned home
• he came back home when he heard our cars
• he could open the oven's door
• he's good in stealing food on the table

there are still a lot of things that i can list up about him. but too many! phew. and why past tense? coz he's gone. our dearest prince of the house is no more there. it is said that when the cat knows that the time has come, the cat will go away as far as possible from its owner. most of our cats were like that. including him. he just went missing. and never come back. and my dad never talk about him anymore after that...

it breaks our hearts. all of us. 4 years with him. he's the best cat after Tompok, who died after being ran over by a car (fuck you driver). but yeah, we all know that all animals will be in heaven after they die. im sure he's a looott happier now, right Belang? we all love and miss you and still do. and i guess, you left us with Comel eh? he really looks like you! his fatness and cuteness and the way he sleeps. but the only different is, he's not as fierce as you. no cat as fierce as you btw. hoho. love ya doll!

oh, forgot to tell. he's sooo feymes in our neighbourhood that months after he went missing, the neighbour in front of our house asking,

jiran: Belang mane ek? da lame xnmpk

uyun: dia da ilang da

jiran: ooo patotlah da xnmpk. sejak belang xda, tikus byk kat umah auntie

and guess what? since he left, there are a lot of male cats come to our house to ngorat our gorgeous cats. when Belang was still there, they didn't even dare to cross our yard. sigh. miss you tuan muda Belang...

giving birth

my youngest sis was trying to explain about the natural birth. i mean, without doing the cesarean way. instead, she called it as "manual birth". how women deliver baby automatically then? Reverse gear or Drive? haha

on Christmas eve

when we were on our way to Desaru, my dad told us this story he experienced by himself. it was the Christmas eve, back when we were still living at Salak South. he was very sure that he heard something at the back of our house. due to curiosity, he went to the kitchen and tried to listen carefully. it sounded like "kling kling kling". like someone was jingling the bell.

he thought, "santa claus?!"

he peeked through the windows andddd he saw a cow crossing the road with a bell around its neck. funny ayah.

ho ho ho

"Oh, jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one horse open sleigh
Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one horse open sleigh"

Merry Christmas everyone!

14.12.09

uh, 6 months ady syg? that means, it has been 3 months since i was left alone here, in this deserted country, with no kisses from the lips i crave for, no touch from the hands and fingers that i used to hold, no huge firm ass (haha) i can kick, no honey brown hair i can stroke and certainly no hugs in that warm arms and body when i sleep.

be reminded dear,

im sooo gonna claim all of the above when you come back! gggrrrr

i love you syg, i always do and when i do it, i do it more than you do towards me. and you can't argue with that coz that's the truth! and we both know that i miss you like cuckoo here aite? so, before i go all weng2, you better be here with me yah. im serious. im dead serious about this. see me laughing? no aite? gggrrrr

happy 6th anniversary baby
big fat smack kiss on your lips!
MUAX

and btw, thanx for the poem. it's beautiful!!!! see, im melting again. hayo, sweettalker!

may cause nausea

euw and yek are what im gonna call them. what's the point of having make up cost a mountain if you can't even take care of your personal hygiene? and for public sake, you guys are celebrities! everyone is looking at you, snap every movement you do. ok enough talking, lets just look at the pics below, shall we?

kelly rowland-can't imagine how the people down there feel

grace jones-full package, all went wrong

julia roberts-if i were the interviewer, oh wait, plz NOT

britney spears-her miserable life can be the excuse

the fact that they were wearing sleeveless tops and proudly showing of the bushes makes me wonder.

and who says that only women can be as disgusting as above? check this out y'all

wesley snipes-*puking*

leonardo-the cause of the sinking of the titanic, not?

john mayer-someone need to lawn here

personally, i dont mind with guys having hair at their armpits but plz, dont think we need to see anything grows longer than 5cm there. phew. and if you are that lazy, just wear short sleeve yah.

Innalillah..

woke up in the morning just to read this msg?

"maaf ganggu. nk bg tahu yg exbf awak meninggal dunia 5 hari lps. kne langgar lori dkt highway mse nak blk kg. arwah pesan bg tahu mcm ni klu dia da xde. ingat ayat arwah untk pesanan ini gurauan tp btl2 tjdi"

sigh, another lie to avoid paying off ur debt? i slept off again coz i noe, it was a bluff. when i woke up second time, i made a call to my so called ex bf's house to make sure if he was still alive or not. and guess what? his lil bro said he just went back to ipoh yesterday.

i called him up and asked what the hell he was trying to do. and that was when i found out that, it was Aple. at first, i couldnt believe myself. if this real or what? but based on what Shah said, Aple's cousin told him that news. and Aple even called him few months back and sounded strange. still, i had my hard time to believe it.

i googled a bit about the accident and then i came across this blog saying that she lost her uncle a month ago. the descriptions of him in her post kinda matched with Aple. i mean like, working at Taiping, hometown at Lambor and his family called him Wan. but to be sure, i asked Shah, what was Aple's job. and he said, a postman. gosh, they matched. so he really is gone..

i wish he forgave me ady for all my wrongdoings
i wish i can tell him the real reason why we broke off
i wish he didnt hold any grudge against me
i wish...
sigh
so many things that i wish for but i know it doesnt mean anything anymore
the only thing that i can do now is wishing him well in the other world


may his soul rest in peace
Al-Fatihah