wake up dear

you have a better life
still you are making a bad choice
not once but more than twice
again and again

i'm no one to judge
just someone who cares
don't want to see you get crushed
again and again

it's hard, i know
but can't you see?
you put yourself too low
again and again

it's none of my business
i do remind myself that
but you are priceless
to go through that
again and again

so dear make a step
you are more than what you think
dont make the same mistake
again and again

from someone who really loves and cares for you

gossips on hari raya!

hope it's still not too late to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya Aidifitri and Maaf Zahir Batin. 20-09-2009, great number eh? after fasting for almost a month(ehem2), it's time to celebrate. ok, cut the crap. lets move on to the main topic. events that had happened during my celebration at kampong really trigger my inner sense. well, it's kampong. they don't need streamyx to spread the words. so what's up?

First

people getting slimmer, not because they went for jogging or work out but DIABETES. a close relative of mine couldn't get his hand off a can of drink. at least one/day. and his recent reading for sugar in blood is 25! honestly, i dont really know what 25 means till my dad said that the level should be lower than 5. hua, 5x higher than the healthy one!

Second

fell sick and not sure why. been said that he was admitted to ICU, cannot walk, he lost lot of weight. and yeah, he doesnt seem good to me, the condition i mean. and it's all started when he peed at a rumpunan bamboo. there is a busut (what eh in english?) near the bamboo thingy. and malays do believe (including me) that there is another world, the unseen world living around us. so maybe, maybe he accidently peed without permission at the "unseen thing's house" and as the result, he fell sick. but we can't say it for sure right. everything happens for a reason and only God knows what why and how. wallahualam. hopefully he gets well soon!

Third

ok we are used to hear people saying that they got confused or couldn't figure out who is the youngest and the eldest. and i usually will be either the youngest(phewwitt) or the second doter. and im also used when people said that my face a bit diff from the rest which i dont know why. i do look like my mum (eva said) and my dad (the skin mostly-haha) BUT this was really2 unexpected. we went to this one relative's house. in fact, this is the first time i went there. after they chitchatting, the relative asked my dad,

"anak ko dua je ke bol?"

huaaaaa. i was right in front of him!! he said my face is totally diff from my parents!huuuu.

Fourth

this one is about my uncle. lemme tell you briefly bout him ek. he doesnt mind buying cheap clothes as long as it's comfortable. he wears shirt and jeans, not so smart looking. his hair is almost grey, his teeth is hmm, lets just say a smoker's teeth-type, rounded belly and quite dark. and he looks older than his age. he's 46, i think. should be younger than my mom since he's my mom's younger bro. the stories were told by his wife (a very cool and funny aunty!)

few years ago, my uncle and my grandma(mak) went to the clinic. and the nurse asked her,

"suami nenek ek?"

few months ago, when mak was admitted to the hospital, my uncle came to visit her. and there was a nyonya next to her bed. mak told that nyonya that my uncle work with Petronas. and that nyonya said,

"owh, you bwk lori minyak petronas ek?"

not so long time ago, he went for fishing and met new friends there. when they asked what he's doing for a living, he answered he works in UTP. and they asked,

"ko keje security guard ke?"

at one of the ConvoFair in UTP, he was sitting under a tent waiting for his wife, where somewhere nearby there was a decorating cake competition. suddenly a ConvoFair committee (a student) approached him and asked,

"pakcik tanak cuba masuk pertandingan hias kek ke?"

he looked at that student and said,

"ko cube tanya org kat dpn tu sape saya."

so that student went and asked. after awhile, that student looked at my uncle and walked away.

haha. i dont have to tell what my uncle does in UTP but enough said that he's not what people expect him to be. dont judge the book by its cover. wink wink. but it's funny though. hahaha

Fifth

a pakcik was hit by a mat rempit. and he lost some of his fingers and broke his hand. i dont really understand how it happened but as told by my mom, after being hit, both mat rempit and that pakcik fell. since the mat rempit was with his friends, they called up some more friends to help the mat rempit one. as expected, they left the pakcik, alone, by himself. bodo pnye mat rempit. xabes2 nk nyusahkan org. try to imagine if your own dad was hit and left alone like that. ad akal letak kt lutut. bongok!

Sixth

"air dicincang xkan putus. tapi kalu air batu,kompem putus"
"dlm byk2 bas, bas ape yg gagap? bas KKKL"
"dlm byk2 wilayah, wilayah ape yg xda sempadan? wilayah celcom"

(lot more jokes that i heard during hari raya but can't recall them.heehoo)

anyway, i had fun! especially when it comes to duit raya! who would imagine a 21-YO like me still get duit raya huh?lalalalala

seminar

not experienced this thing myself but by my lovely fren. here how the story goes. tersebutlah kisah di mana student2 final year dikehendakkan tok bagi seminar. maka dgn itu, sahabat saya ini, biarlah saya namekan dia Si Manis bersungguh2lah membuat slides dan study psl project dia nh. mmg hebatlah (xmcm sy la mksdnye).

dgn berbekalkan laptop pinjam, diusungnyalah beg seberat beras tu kehulu kehilir sb sebelum seminar tu beliau ade kelas. angkara kemalasan nk kembali ke blk tok amek laptop, maka dgn itulah sbnye beliau mengcarry laptop itu.

berbalik kepada cerita asal, sesudah seminar itu, beliau kembali tok pulangkan laptop. menurut beliau, hanya satu examiner aka lecturer je yg dtg. yg lg sorg, tak dtg wlopn da dikol berkali2. kesudahannya, beliau terpaksa la set a new date tok seminar dgn that particular examiner. hmm, lets us call him Mr Mo.

few mins later, sy terdengar jeritan dr blk J yg panjang. hempasan pintu jgn dibilang kekuatannya. and guess what? Mr Mo called her and asked her to come to his office now to do the seminar (sabar2, jgn carut lg.bulan pose nh). dgn hati dan kaki yg berat dan menyampahkn, beliau terpaksa p ke opis Mr Mo.

seketika kmudian, dtg satu msg dr beliau mengatakan, Mr Mo cuma panggil dia dtg sb nk ckp esk br wt seminar tu dgn dia.

okeh okeh
mari sumpah seranah ramai2
mmg cekgu patot dihormati
tp klu da bijak tahap phD tp perangai cam bangang?
mmg student is wayyy below his level
but does that give him the right to serve us like a jackass?
c'mon la
bulan pose kot
pekejadah nk wat org susah
klu ye pn nk set time, mcm xleh ckp dlm emel jeh
haaa handphone pn ad
haishhhhh

sekian, trimas

14.09.09

the day finally came. the day i teared. the day of our last hug and kiss. the day i need to let you leave. that day, 15.09.09, the day you went away. the day that i will start counting. will not stop until i see you again. holding a huge luggage and smiling at me. in front of the arrival gate. soon. and on that day, you will give back my heart. i will give yours as well. till then, i'm here, waiting for you.

happy 3rd anniversary syg
i love you
i miss you

His blue eyes

The longer I stare, the more I melt

Not looking at them makes me sad

Missing the “eye game” that we had

And he won coz he has longer eyelash

His long nose

He bragged about it all the time

But still he kissed the short nose of mine

It poked my cheeks but I don’t mind

Coz it is his and it’s so fine

His pink lips

Not as red as someone else’s (haha)

But still it got me speechless

Feels so soft tastes so fierce

That’s what keeping me breathless

His muscle boobs

Another thing that he bragged about

Perfect punch bag when it is hard

Perfect jelly when it is not

And perfect spot to hear his heart

His flat tyre

Lovehandle, that’s what people called

And maybe that’s why he has a lot

And sigh he still looking so hot

Coz he has a body of a jock (uweekk)

His bumpy tummy

Mine is bumpier, I know that!

But you should listen his tummy’s rap

Kruk kruk kruk is the sound it made

Syg, make sure you don’t eat too late

He’s mine

Regardless how he is as stated

To have him, I’m so damn lucky

Can’t wait for another date

Come back soon my baby monkey

fuck you

Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of all the
hatred you harbor

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who
can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you (Fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of
being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a
life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where
your soul should be
Your losing control of it and
it's really distasteful

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch

You say
You think we need to go to war
well you're already in one
Cause it's people like you
who need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you

ibu syg

we were gossiping as always and this particular subject came up. it was about how some moms or parents totally dont give a fuck about their children. they cursed them bad words like bodo, nyusahkan makbapak, anak haram (well, kire ko lah salah sb hasilkan anak haram) and so on. that makes me realize how lucky am i to have Mr Kabol and Pn Norra as my birthparents (bajet cam ad makbapak len je). ya ya, im the one who rebel too much and whatsoever but that doesn't mean i dont love them aite?

anyhow, i remembered the incident of Mustapha Kamal's doter (cant recall her name) who had been suspected to commit suicide by jumping off the balcony. and the "mom" cried at her funeral and said that they were besfren blablabla. and the very next weekend, Melodi showed some of closest friends and relatives of the deceased talked about how fucked up the "mom" treated her doter. there was once (they said) when the "momSTER" locked her doter in the balcony at 3am with only wearing short pants and spag. and there was an incident when the "momSTER" said,"aku haramkan susu aku yang ko minum."

for the love of God, what kind of mother would say something like that to her very own doter? the one that she gave birth. we all know as Muslim, whatever comes out from our mom is a pray. if it's a bad one, then the bad one will happen. but yeah, we dont know what might the deceased did or said to her mom but whatever reason-shit it is, how come you as a mom would has the tummy to curse and jinx ur own child?geezz. and while we were discussing (diskus la sgt) this,

jojo: imagine kalau ade mak haramkan susu yang dia bg kat anak dia, tibe2 anak dia ckp,"bukan dlu mak bg susu nespray je ke?"

hahahaha

moral of the story: bagi anak minum susu badan. susu lembu kan xsebagus susu ibu.nyum2

oh wait, there was a text msg from my mom when we were talking about the issue. i asked her what brand of rice that she gave to me coz my frens all said that the rice looked nice.

ana: beras ape yg ibu pakai? kwn2 ana sume ckp beras tu cantek n gemuk
ibu: name beras tu Norra. samelah mcm tuannya. (she was referring to the cantek n gemuk thingy)

-_-"

heart them

"my mother had been all over me as a kid- advice, criticism, the whole smothering mothering thing. there were times I wished she would leave me alone. but then she did. she died. no more visits, no more phone calls."

"you can be a mama's boy or a daddy's boy. but you can't be both."




"thoroughly thought through"