she-knows-that

i went to one of my ex-classmate's engagement. i reached there hours after the ceremony coz i was in malacca on that morning and heavy traffics were blocking my way. so basically when i got there, there was barely anything left eventhough there was a storm racing in my bumpy tummy. blablabla and this is not actually the reason of my writing this time. it was about a friend of mine. well, after today, i dont think she's someone that u might wna consider as fren. more like, urm, someone u know, that's all. and why is that?

lets go back to a lil history, shall we? when i was 14 and since im a year younger than the rest of my frens back in school (still do), i used to call some of them with the title of Kak and she's one of them. maybe bcoz she looked all grown up and matured kind of person. and maybe bcoz of that, she kinda always, when i said always, i means always, all the time, treated me like i was a child. and she had this attitude of boasting and full of herself. she had this tot that she's better than everyone in all sorts of thing and she had this smug face when she talked.

anddd i tot, it's a past tense when i said 'she had' and 'she tot'. i beg to differ. it kinda took me by surprise too thinking that after all these years, she might change, NOT. and still, she has that talk-with-slang even in malay (she's good in english, i admit that). and with those long eyelashes she has, she tends to give the rolling-eyes-face when she talks about something (she thinks) she knows more than any of us.

it all started when they asked me how i met my bf. with a big smile, i was telling them briefly how it happened and thingies and one of my fren asked me where he lives. and i said frankfurt oder. i was kinda startle to say 'oder' coz german is not always pronounced as it's written. and she corrected me, which i dont mind at all, except with that oh-i-know-everything-face. but, i let it passed.

however, she was then asked me this inappropriate question to me. she asked,"how can you trust him?" i was stunned for awhile before i explained that we kinda influenced by the american attitude and european is nothing like that. and guess what? she kept interrupting me with "yeah, european is not like that" and "conservative people are like that" and "i know them coz ive been there" and "i can speak german coz i took the class back in the school". yeah sure, whatever. but i guess, u've never been with a german (as a bf i mean) before to speak with first hand experience eh?

clap clap for her since she knows eeeeevverything in this world. sure. after the small reunion we had, i went back with a fren and i told her that i was kinda annoyed with that Kak. and she said,"im relieved that u say that. did you know what she said when you were washing the dishes?" and here what she said (well, i dont really remember what she said exactly but it sounded like this la),

"

we who already work always find a bf that is responsible and has future to take care of. we are not like students anymore who only find bf for fun.

"

o-m-g. that's the limit bitch. like siyesly, u said that? o c'moonnnn. you were talking about 20+ yo frens, not the one who's in the 1st year or just had their SPM. do you actually know any of our bfs? like, really really know them to say that? is your bf that responsible in whatever shit he's doing? you sure he's the best man alive (or dead)?

hey listen laa. you havent seen us for years and you dont have any shit of clues what we have been through. you dont know what kind of men we've been dated or experienced with. you have no right to say that. no right at all. not only you are proud with yourself like you always do, you also looking down at us as if we are stupid and dont have a clue in finding a good or even great man to be with. siyesly dowh, cam bangang je ko ckp cmtuh.

sorry, ive no respect with you anymore nor i can consider you as fren. just someone i know. and the fact that you were saying those things in front of your 3frens that are still students and have bf of their own, that's just stupid, woman. you have no right at all. coz you dont have any idea of us.

oh wait, remember when you said that being a student is better than doin work in terms of shopping, bills, car and things? maybe you are right. or maybe the work you are doing right now just dont give you enough pay.

p/s: we are not 14 yo gals that you knew when you were 15. people change and you? not.