cheating is bad

relationship w/o trust and honesty does not worth the time. being cheated is the last thing i'd want to feel when i'm with someone i love and care. i've been there. i've been cheated. not once or twice. more than that. old saying says "you fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me." i was a fool for believing that a cheater would change. there is no way of such thing can be happening. and people say everyone deserves a second chance. maybe they do. maybe they dont when they are worthless like that person. anyhow, im over it. hell yeah im. long longgg time ago ady. that cheating taught me a lesson. a life lesson. 

and im just so happy, couldn't be happier. im finally with someone that i couldn't imagine to be with in hundreds years. he's more than what ive been asking for. he gives me the world. he makes me feel beautiful and smart (which i dont think im). he's not a cheater. he's just a damn good liar when he says that to me. and i sometimes always fall for that. sheesh. i can get diabetes (God forbids) just hearing his candy-lips saying sweet stuff. and yes, i do miss tasting touching that juicy lips (with my fingers, of course ;P). overall, i miss you sayang and i love you cherry much. can't wait to see you in person. MUAX!

i know there are still a lot of people out there that have been cheated or cheating on their partners. a crime that there is no way for forgiveness, let alone to be forgotten. some pics i bumped into while browsing. kinda funny. what would i do if my syg cheats on me? hurm. naahhh, he wont. why bother burdening my brain thinking for something that wont happen aite? tehee. love you babeh! 

it would be much better if she put the last name of Steven so that everyone will know aite? IF i were her (big IF okayy), i'd put on some of his ugliest naked pics. 

now this is what i'd call as caught pink handed

scumbag

*ouch* never make a woman angry y'all

and one more way to teach your cheating partner is to humiliate them. i like this one. haha. neway, be happy with your partner guys and please, please be grateful that they are near to you. being apart between South China Sea or Lebuhraya Utara Selatan or Pantai Timur, that's nothing guys. trust me. tsk tsk. 

bieber fever

found this cute video of 3YO gal crying over justin bieber. haha!

and this is the original video.

credit to my cuz sheila. thanx babe! tehee

tapak kaki and christiano ronaldo

kakni is a step away from becoming an aeronautical engineer for navy. uyun still has years from now before we can call her cikgu uyun, officially. what is the pattern here, if you see any? oh oh. forgot to tell you guys. my dad is a retired air force officer and my mom is a teacher. can you make it out what i am trying to say here? navy, air force and teacher, teacher. exactly. everyone is following our parents' footsteps. and here i am, standing by my own feet. kalu x, nk diri pakai kaki sape kan. being the second child, what do you expect? how familiar this saying is to you, "anak kedua mmg laen sikit". it might be as old as a century but boyy how i hate to say that it is true. i wasn't happy with that saying before as it showed as if i didnt belong to the family, like an outcast, not from the same root. but as time passing by and this brain of mine is getting more mature each day (u'huh), i believe different means special. haha. ye, ayat penyedap hati. but today, i just realised that i do follow my dad's footprint. as summons collector. haih. mane nak carik rm300 nih???   

and owhhhh one more thing! take a look at the pics below. 

found any similarity? other than gorgeous, ridiculously cute and muscular body (astaga). here's the hint. small, tiny, black dot. the mole! except that his is a bit terjatuh dari landasan. maybe this is why im a bit different? maybe im his long lost lil sis? maybe im not even a malaysian? im a portuguese? wow. what a breakthrough! 


*knock *knock
wana, sila bangun dari mimpi and pegi mandi skrg. match da nak start nh.
-_-"

14.06.10

wow, im 10 days late! kinda busy with my unemployment. haha. anyway, thanx for the ppt and poem syg. they are lovely. too sweet la you. beware or i will get diabetes soon (God forbids)! i love you i love you i love you baby, i really really do. a year of happiness syg eventhough we are miles (thousands of it, hmph) away from each other and still you have the charm to make me smile and shade my tears. now tell me, where can i get someone like you? nowhere! thanx baby for being the greatest lover for me. i couldn't ask for a better one when i have the best, am i right? haha. and im wishing (pressing my thumbs) that on 14th June 2011, we will celebrate it together, for real, hand in hand, and have our getaway together and get at least one kiss from you. at least. eleh, as if i have to ask to get more than one eh? hahaha. muax!

happy 1st year anniversary 

honeyplum

aiyark, low quality la. i will send you the original copy eh. hee

Doomsday 2012

Doomsday 2012. my dad was excited when i told him ive that movie on my external hard disc. so did my mom. so we decided to watch it instead of FIFA or WWE. that means a lot if you know how my dad will argue with everyone in the house every Tuesday nite at 10 pm so that he can watch WWE. so i put it on the tv and we were kinda, really, excited! i havent watch the movie when it was a hit. after awhile, Uyun came and asked why the movie was different from what she saw on the cinema. and i said, maybe there was another version (confidently saying). so after 10 mins, Uyun said that the scene we were watching wasn't in the 2012 movie. so i dug up through Google and haih, it was a different movie. hayo. but well, we were halfway through the end, so, we continued watching. and the more i watched, the more i regretted. honestly, it sucks. big time. the actors and actresses were totally plastics and even Fasha Sandha can act better. this shows how bad the acting was. and as a believer and a Muslim, i found it ridiculous, a total messed up story. who can stop doomsday? we can predict that the judgement day is in 2012 or 2020 or whatever but in the end, only He knows when and once it happens, not even superheroes or menteri or avatar (haha - sorry pis, saja jak mok anok kawu) can stop that from happening. but whatever it is, the bottom line is, the movie is not worth watching and one word for it, LONGKANG. 

ini ialah bodo

5 years mannn

huaaa. so ive finally done with my 5years in utp. boyyy i tell you, ive learned a lot from it. engineering of course but not only that. i learned about life, love, friendship, etc. see, told ya, a lot! and im hoping that ive become a better person than i was before. in terms of maturity and on how i view the world. okay okay, i think this is getting borriiinnggg. haha. but whatever it is, my final year in utp sure did teach me more than the other 4 years. and i bet, if not all, most of you feel the same or in the same boat as i am. this is the year when you feel like you've lost some of your friendships, some of the time on unnecessary things and even yourselves'. and this final year taught you how to survive in this cruel world (this is a bit exaggerating, i know), how you come to your senses that this world is not a bubblebath and you learned that you need to be heartless and care less about others' feelings if you dont want to get hurt. i learned it either in a hard way or the easy way. whoa, i nagged a lot today. i better stop now. shush now wana. next entry will be about what i see/saw, feel/felt and experience/experienced throughout my life in that isolated yet kinda-happening-lil-place called utp. stay tune. 

xoxo

gigi susu

i saw this link by flyfm about my milk toof. SANGAT KIUT!

it's a rainbow!

i couldn't recall when was the last time i saw a rainbow for real. and today, after a hardcore rain full with lightnings (lip lap lip lap) and thunders (kebabom), there it was, colourful lines of rainbow crossing over academic buildings. thanx alvin for letting me know about it! so i rushed outside of my room and snap snap! 

gorgeous. see, there will be a wonderful bright sight after a gloomy bad horrifying time. talking about being optimist la nh. hoho. psst, maybe i should have take look at the end of the rainbow and God knows maybe i'd find a pot of gold and buy ticket to germany. hm. ya, i should have. haish. if i did, should it be a return ticket or only one way? :P

my cute sweetpie

he said to keep it to myself but can i? NO! i wanna show to the world how cute and sweet he is, like seriously cute! haha. he wrote this for my birthday and of all the wonderful poems he wrote for me so far (this means im looking forward for the next poem syg - hint!haha), this is the best ever! see it for yourself ek.

Saya cintakan awak!     

Aku cinta menoton ketika dia tidur

Aku akan menoton masing masing Malam untuk tidur dia          

Saya ingin menoton dan menyentuh dia sepanjang hari

Saya ingin menoton sebagi dia banyak makan dan bergerak dia lucu mulut.

Ada begitu banyak hal yang tidak untuk menghiburku anda.

Saya senang bahawa anda ada!

hahaha see told ya! it took me twice, okay okay more than twice to get what he meant but all the way through in understanding this simple yet adorable sentences, i laughed my ass off and sobbed sweet-candy-tears. thanx honey for being a sugar! oh oh what he means with the above poem is

I love you

I love to watch you sleeping

I would watch you every night until you sleeps

I would love to see you and feel you the whole day

I would love to see how you are eating a lot, while chewing with your cute mouth

There are so many little things that make me happy with you

I’m glad that you’re there/in my life

not bad for a stubborn and rebellious student. next time, pay more attention to the class, not on the teacher. hahaha :P

love you thomas kremser

wana is forever yours

 muax on that deliciously hhrring pink lips!

14.05.10

lemme tell ya'll something. today, as in 14th May is our 11th month anniversary! woot woot! that means, we have been apart for 8 months ady. it's not easy guys. even some friends (BFFs) called me the Queen of LDR. the title is not as exciting as it sounds like. the closest way for us to keep in touch is through skype. now now, tell me, how sad and eyes-tearing is that? touching the screen of the laptop while the real thing u wanna do is to touch his face, kissing the webcam when u are hoping it's his lips, hugging the pillow and imagine it's his warm body and tuck yourself in the blanket and envisaging that it's him keeping you warm. but no matter how sad it is, he always finds a way to make you laugh and feel close to each other. he knows how to wipe my tears even from thousands miles away. yes, im damn fucking lucky to have him. and im still counting the days for the moment he finally says,"syg, will you pick me up at the KLIA?". i will wait syg. muax. okay, enuf with (tsk tsk) heart-breaking moment. let's move on to the next part. remember i told you a bit ago that we skyped? here are some candy pictures of him. 

when he brightens my day

when he smiles

when he's acting cute

when he's being annoying

when he's arguing

when he pretends to sleep

when he's being a kid

when he's being a sweetie

when he's trying to be cute

when he's being aauww

when he's being handsome

when he's hungry

when he's sad

when he's schlaefrig

when he's thinking

when he's sulking

im blessed to have him right?

eh thomas kremser

if you read this, which i know you will

since you are my ultimate stalker

please bear in mind that

i, nur hazwana kabol

seriously, deeply, in love with you

so be mine forever as im yours forever

happy 11th month anniversary baby!

final exam timetable!

finally!

ok let's pressing our thumbs for the best final exam for our final sem in utp. whoosh!

good luck everyone and put on your best dress or clothes for final (?)!!

do the best for yourself and tawakal after our hard work, insyaAllah.

rumors - lindsay

Saturday night steppin' into the club
Cuz the music makes me wanna tell the DJ to "turn it up"
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop movin to the sound
But, I can tell that you're watching me
And your probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?
Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me, I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down, if I'm only havin' fun?
I'm gonna live my life
(but not the way you want me to)
I'm tired of rumors startin, I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying, saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me? Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way, take this for just what it is
Here we are back up into the club
People taking pictures don't you think they get enough?
I just wanna get onto the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to the beat like
I gotta say respectfully
I would love it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just need a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?
I just need to free my mind...
Just wanna dance and have a good time...

english people

i admit that my english is not supernova. but to know that you are working with an established, world class company and yet, you used wrong grammar and posted the announcement without double checking it was a shocker. and it was a simple grammar, doesn't need a Shakespeare to write that. here's what i mean:

see, not that hard aite? 


and on facebook,

unlike means dissimilar, different. dislike is the right word.


and some wrote,


toot toot: im boringggg
that means you are a boring person. unless you were really admitting that you are a dull person. or it is supposed to be "im bored".




ok, till next time y'all.

on-off

you are not a 12 years old any more. at your age, it shouldn't be called as puppy love. it should be the real one, not a made up, not just for fun. if you think like "aaahhh mude lagi nk siyes siyes nh" or in the end people will think "aaahhh he/she doesn't worth the time".

it has been a trend to put your rship on and off, whenever you feel like. had an argument, let's break off. few days later, reconcile. next month, break off again. you haven't been married yet and you have been broken up like few times ady. will this be the pattern of your marriage?

if you are really serious with your relationship, will you think putting it off just because of gado berbaloi? im not judging you, seriously. just want you guys to think about it. and still we are wondering why all artis artis snang2 jeh cerai. doesn't it ring a bell?

and how serious and lame are you to put your private life on facebook? are you proud of the amount people like and comment on your "toot toot went from in relationship to single"? how more capub can you be? aren't you supposed to be in mourning session if you really are sad of breaking up?

so guys and girls, dont just because of arguments and nonsense, snang snang je korg lafaz break up. time kapel, ye xde hal nk rujuk. what if he accidentally lafaz talak tiga? x gile talak nanti? unless if you are sure about breaking off, then go ahead.

hey, im not judging, just giving you some insight view of mine. that's all. in the end, it's your life, your love.

dream 1

ive never failed to not having any dream during my sleep. even for a nap. including the nap that i just had. was reading a tiring lengthy notes of alternative energy when i slept off. so here we go.

the dream:

i went to a concert with a friend (can't recall who) and his friend. so we were jumping high and enjoying ourselves. suddenly, i was with his friend only. he hugged me and we walked on the stage. then we heard someone talking about plans for new year (walhal new year lg 6 bulan kot). and suddenly he said,

unknown guy: i dont think i can make any plan for us for new year. sebab time tu sy nak sunat.

me: how old are you exactly?

okay okay, that guy didnt look underage. he looked as matured as most of you. so cam klaka plak dia br nk sunat, like at age of 18? im sure if he's gonna sunat at that age, wowo, that's half hell man, the pain i mean. ok move on.

suddenly he kidnapped me and brought me to his mum's house. apparently, somehow i knew that i was in kelantan. haha lawak yer. i begged his mum to let me go. but instead of releasing me, she just did nothing.

i tried to run and screaming like a madcow around the village. but all the villagers seemed to ignore me when i said i was being kidnapped. and they even tried to catch me so that i could marry that guy. simpang malaikat 44!

i was struggling, i tell you. like really really. i could feel i was literally sweating. whoa. the fact that i was kidnapped and forced to marry a kelantanese, and he has not even been circumcised. oh tidak. xpe xpe.

p/s: jangan tdo time asar, nanti mimpi pelik pelik. ok jom solat.